Dai and Yuan Shuai went for recording at 6pm. HuiSi was at the radio gate and she saw Dai. She called for a few times but I didn't notice it because my phone was on silent mode. When I saw so many missed calls, I panicked and quickly call her back. She said she wanted to pass the phone to Dai, but I didn't answer the call. Tears rolled down my cheeks. How silly I was to leave my phone on silent mode! It was the first time I have so many missed calls and it's the most important moment. Sigh.
HuiSi told me that Dai ate the cookies we gave him. I was happy to hear that. She also said that she has helped me passed message to Dai, telling him that I miss him. You know what his reply was? "ohhh.. 这个fiona啊，每次都说她很想念我." What does he mean? I interpreted it as it's nothing special that she miss me. I know I might think too much, but I can't help it. He was laughing when he said that lor, and the fans laughed along with him. Does that mean that he takes me as a joke? Do you know how sad I was when I heard that? I controlled my tears because I'm in the public having dinner with my friend. I don't want my friend to worry about me. After we ended the call, I still continue to talk and laugh along with my friend, but in my heart I was already crying.
When I reached home, Anollec called me. She told me not to be upset over it, as I might misunderstood his meaning. I can't help but start crying. I tried so hard to control, but I can't. Tears just keep falling. She told me to tink of those happy times with him. Tinking of the happy times make me cry even harder. On 19 Jun, he just told me he knows that I missed him and he seems to be quite happy over it, but now he is laughing at me for always missing him. I no longer understand him anymore. How much I can still trust him? Now, I don't even know when is he truthful with his words.
I'm feeling so terrible, I just need to get it off my chest. I wrote him a message on his blog and baidu. Hoping he will give me a response.
He don't know how much he has hurt me.
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