Today is my first duty on a saturday, reached office at 9am but no one is in e office. It's already 10am and e person who is holding e key is still not here yet. Why can't people be more responsible? If u're holding e key, come on time la. Fcking pek cek to wake up so early n waste my time sitting outside e office.
Colleague from another unit saw me, asked me go wait at their office. Ok, at least got colleagues noe i'm here!
Today GI day was held at Suntec City-The Rock. I knew that Dennis will be coming so I spent an effort dressing up today, wanted to let him see a prettier side of me. I even wore a new dress that I bought it yesterday at Bugis-Hypnosis. In fact, yesterday night I tried out different dress, trying to choose the best.
I'm in charge of registration, since there is 2 times of swipe-in and swipe-out, I managed to see him 4 times. The first 2 times were merely a hi-bye conversation, but that was more than enough to make me happy. Just by seeing me, I'm already very happy.
The third time we has slightly a longer conversation. He ever mentioned that he wanted to buy me lunch, I know he might be kidding but I just wanna grab this chance. Since I haven't eaten, I told him to buy me lunch, he immediately agreed. I thought he was joking, so I told him to wait for me for 15mins, and he reallie waited for me. Unfortunately, his phone rang and he has to rush for appointment with his client. 命运捉弄人啊! Sigh. Anyway, I told him that I will be transferring to Tampines outlet, and he promised he will buy me lunch before I go over. I really hope so!
The session had ended and most of the agents have swiped-out, but he is nowhere to be seen. Just when I thought he might not be able to rush back in time, he appeared. I told myself I must grab this chance to talk more with him, cuz I dunno when will be the next time that I will be able to see him again. Although it has been half a year since we first met, we have never have a proper intro before, so I have to pretend that I dunno his name. Even though I find it funnie, but I still asked for his name, and he finally asked for my name! We even exchanged number! Then he said "你今天很不一样，有打扮哦，很漂亮。你应该常常这样。" My effort of dressing up today has been recognised! Hehe. The excitement I'm trying to hide is going to outburst anytime! I feel like "Kya-ing" but obviously I can't do it in front of him la. It was very sweet and nice of him to walk me to the MRT Station then headed back to get his car. We chatted for a whole half an hour! Yeah! We broke our previous record.
"Excited" is not enough a word to describe how I feel! I just love today soooooo muchie!
The weather is so hot that my t-shirt is all wet! But for him, i'm willing to lah.
好帅哦！♥♥♥
好可爱哦！
3 fans were given the chances to ask Dai questions, and I'm one of the 3. My question is "在拍吻戏前，会吃Profresh吗？"He only answered "我的包包里面有很多Profresh,我常常都在吃。"He didn't answer my question lehs. So when he presented the gift to me, I told him "你还没有回答我的问题耶。"He asked what question, so I repeated the question and he smile shyly then replied "会啦。吃很多。" The way he answered my question is so cute! Hehe.
Travelled all the way to Expo just to see Dai. Miss him so much!!!
Quite like this photo taken with him. Went up to the stage to answer a question, so got the chance to take photo with him. Won some travel vouchers but I don't need them, so I gave it away. Gifts are not important to me, only the moment that I'm able to spend with him is important than anything else.
Reached IMM at 9am and joined FC in queueing for Autograph Session. We are queueing under the sun, HOT!
Before Lollipop F arrive, host selected 10 fans to play 抢答游戏, only 8 will be selected to have 亲密触动 with Lollipop F. I was lucky to be one of the 10 but I wasn't chosen to be one of the 8. I'm really upset!
Derrick was here to support them. So nice of him!
He even bought Pandan cakes for them! He is so sweet!
互喂 is loved!
They donated to "Mercy Relief", of course I donated too. :D
They looked so cool with the shades!
They give out the shades to the fans, but i'm not the lucky ones.
I love the "touch". Hehe.
Love the smile of 小煜. He is so charming!
When I went up on stage to get their autographs, I told 敖犬 that their performance was great yesterday, he said thanks with a smile and he winked at me! Omg, for that moment he really took my heart away! I told 阿纬 the same thing and he smiled and said thanks. I felt very apologectic that I forgot to talk to 威廉, and I even forgot to shake his hand until he stretched out his hand. Really felt very guilty, cuz 小煜 was just beside him and my eyes are already on 小煜. 威廉,我真的不是故意把你遗忘的，对不起。Told 小煜 the same thing and he also smiled and say thanks to me. Then I told him "小煜，无论要等多久，我都会等你回来。"He replied "真的吗？" I gave a hard nod and he said "那，一言为定哦！" with 2 of his index fingers pointing at me. I thought I was going to faint on the spot! I need to go someone and scream out my excitement! Just love 小煜 so muchie!
Lollipop F at autograph session Part 1
Lollipop F at autograph session Part 2
Lollipop F at autograph session Part 3
I felt so damn LUCKY! 小煜's hand on my head! ♥
Till now the feeling of his hand on my head is still being deeply remembered in my heart. Realised 小煜 has changed so much. 3 years ago, he hardly even smile, but now he smiles alot and he is so frenli! No matter is 三年前的他,或现在的他，我都爱!
SiWei & I bought the Standing Pan tickets long ago because we thought SHINee might be attending. This is the first time they holding it at Singapore Indoor Stadium, and the tickets are more expensive than previous years, so we thought definitely there will be some BIG stars coming. Since K-pop is so popular now, we thought there will be at least a group of Korean band coming to perform. Damn it, no Korean band at all! Seriously pissed off by the organisation! Feel like they are cheating our money lor.
Dragged myself to Indoor Stadium, because other than Lollipop F and Se7en, there is no other artistes that I'm interested to see. The event started, wah, boring to the max! I feel like sleeping dere!
However, once Lollipop F is out, I became super high! Lollipop F is so cool, still love them as much as 3 yrs ago! 小煜 is so charming!!! I'm still so in love with his voice!!!
Lollipop F singing 放空
Lollipop F singing 四度空间
Between 2:45 - 2:48, 小煜 smirked at us, I totally went CRAZY! 迷死人的小煜!
Se7en
Lollipop F made me feel that the money I spent on this event is worthwhile.
Ytd I had a sucky nite. No one wanna acc me go KL to watch Golden Awards, so I stayed at home to watch the live streaming on ntv7 webby. A grp of us watching online, so I created a thread in forum to share our tots.
When e camera shoot past Zzen, we scream like mad! It was as if we c him in person. He was SUPER good looking ytd.
He was nominated for "Most Popular Male Actor" and "Best Male Actor" but he didnt win any of e awards. I was super upset. I cried when I noe he didn't win e "Most Popular Male Actor" award. I cried reallie hard. Lotsa cursing can b found in e forum. It's reallie damn irritating! We spent so much of our time n effort to spam e votes but still didn't manage to help him win e award. I can cfm NTV7 play cheat! Dey wun allow Mediacorp artistes to win de. NTV7 sux!
Tis is e first time I feel tt Zzenzation is so bonded. I love how everyone came tgt bcos of Zzen. I reallie love tis kinda feeling. Tis is wad I can nv find in DAInamics. When we nid everyone effort to support Dai, all disappeared. Thx god, Zzenzation is much more lovable.
Anw I was sumhow glad tt tis incident allowed me to uds myself more. I didn't noe I wuld cry for Zzen. I didn't noe I love him tis much. Perhaps next year Star Awards I wuld reallie support Zzen wholeheartedly and wun b torn between two.
It has been almost half a year that I hv been avoiding tings related to e man I love e most.
Perhaps u might tot tt e man I love e most is Dai, nope tts nt true. It's normal for u to misunderstand, cos I myself also misunderstood tt Dai has replaced him. I reallie tot aft dese few mths tt I havent been looking into tings related to him, n oso putting so much attention to Dai, Dai has replaced him, but it doesn't seems like it. No matter how much attention I hv been putting on Dai, occasionally I still tink of him. Whenever I tink of him, I will cry. I meant tt I reallie cried hard. It's ridiculous tt I hv nv meet tis man in my real life but he is able to drive me crazy. Frens ard me tot tt I'm reallie insane n were reallie worried abt me. I'm sori tt I've caused dem to worry so much abt me but feeling is sumting u culdn't control.
Since 23 Apr 2007, I've fall in love wif tis man, Akanishi Jin, Jap singer. He debuted in 22 Mar 2006 with another 5 members as a group, KAT-TUN. I reallie tink it's fated tt I wuld fall in love wif him. I've nv been interested in Jap industry. My sis used to admire a few Jap idols, but tt time I laughed at her n said "Dun b silly to like Jap idols, dey r so far away, u can't even c dem, hear dem or touch dem in real life."
One day my sis told me tt she went to her fren hse n e TV was playing a Jap gangster drama n dere were alot of handsome actors in it. I noe tt one of my fren does watch Jap drama, so I described tis drama to her n she passed e drama discs to me. She is unsure whether tt is e drama tt my sis is toking abt but tis show reallie hv quite a few handsome actors in it. I brought it hm n watched it wif me sis, "AAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!! It's tis show!!!" Indeed, my sis has a gd taste, dey r quite gd looking. The first scene tt Jin appeared in already attracted my attention. To me it's gd drama, n I quite like e actor but I dunno who he is so I didn't bother much abt it. Den one dae in sch, I took e newspaper which was left on e table by sumone n read it. "Ah! Isn't tis e guy?!" He appeared in e newspaper n e title was "Bad boy Jin rejoins band." I hv owaes like bad boys so e word "bad boy" reallie draws my attention to it. Frm e article, i got to noe a little info abt him n I went to e internet n searched abt him.
Here is e first vid tt I hv watched:
I was v impressed wif his high pitch. I melted e moment I hear it. Doesn't it sound beautiful? Hees.
Jin has reallie brightened up my life. Aft noeing Jin, I hv learnt how to laugh. Whenever it's abt Jin, I'll definitely reveal a smile. It's onli until last yr, sept, I cried v v v hard. It's e first time I was mad upset wif him.
R u able to accept e man u love doing tis? Even if u noe tis is jus for work? I can't. I seriously can't. In 2008, Jin's buddy, Yamapi, did a shot for the mag, Anan. When I saw it, I was praying hard tt Jin wun b e nxt one on tis mag. But I guessed god didn't hear my prayer. When I saw e photo on e internet, I cried v v v hard. Tts e first time I cried in front of my family. Dey tot wad happened tt can make me cried so hard. When my sis noe e reason for me crying so hard, she gave me a disgusted look. She reallie tinks tt i'm insane. e reason I cried was bcos I dun wan to share my hubby's body wif e whole world female! At tt pt of time, my tot is "He is onli mine!". Yupp, it's crazy, but tts how much I love him.
I took abt a mth time b4 I recovered frm tis hurtful incident n I continued loving him. Den half a yr ago, he hurt me agn.
KAT-TUN has finally decided for an Asia concert tour, n I was v excited abt it cos I tot I can finally see him. But tt man wasn't gg to joined e members in e concert tour. He is gg to LA to hv his solo concerts n KAT-TUN decided to continue e concert w/o him. Jin is v into western culture. He even went to LA for half a yr to study aboard. Till nw, he is still into western culture. When he chose to go LA for his solo concerts instead of joining KAT-TUN for deir first Asia concert tour, all e fans started badmouthing abt him. I dun even dare to step into e forum to tae a look cos it reallie hurt me alot seeing fans badmouthing e man who i loved e most. I decided to stop seeing his news until his solo concerts is over.
But aft his concerts ended, dere came another shocking news. Tis news was told by my fren, cos I didn't go into e forum at all. I broke dwn when I heard "Jin is outta KAT-TUN." Jin's agent, Johnny, annouced tt Jin will b cont his career in LA n KAT-TUN will nt wait for him. Frm nw on, KAT-TUN is no longer 6 persons. Tell me, how am I gg to accept tis news? To me, KAT-TUN has to b 6 persons, 缺一不可. KAT-TUN isn't KAT-TUN anymore if dere isn't 6 persons. KAT-TUN is made up of e 6 members name, Kamenashi, Akanishi, Taguchi, Takana, Ueda n Nakamaru. Dey each represents an alphabet in e grp name! How can dey kicked Jin outta KAT-TUN n still called demselves KAT-TUN?! It's ridiculous! KAT-TUN is nothing w/o Jin. I was v angry at KT-TUN, dey said, dey r ok to b w/o Jin. U guys r members, soulmates, best frens, how culd u said tt to hurt Jin? KAT-TUN was formed in 2001, Jin has be wif dem for 10 yrs n dey said dey r ok w/o Jin. Dey broke Jin's hrt, dey broke my hrt. I culdn't accept e fact tt Jin is outta KAT-TUN. I run awae frm e reality. I was such a coward.
W/o KT-TUN, will Jin b happy? Will he b ok? He is owaes quiet when he is in front of camera, onli wif his members he will b more comfortable. I'm so worried for him but I shld hv confident in him. But I gonna miss all dose times when KAT-TUN was together as one.
I gonna miss how he bullies his members:
How mean he was to his members:
How dey love to disturb each other's solo part in e concert:
e moments i'll miss e most is akakame moments. Akame is made up wif AKAnishi + KAMEnashi. It's a couple nick for dem. I love how dey interact wif each other. Dey r jus like a couple to me. A lovely couple tt meant for each other. I wasn't jealous of tt cos I noe Jin is v happy when he is wif Kame.
Lovely Akame moments:
Tinking of all dese wonderful moments tt wun happen agn drain awae all my strength. I was so afraid to lose dem tt I run awae frm e news. Act like I hv nv heard e news at all.
I dunno y Jin chose LA over KAT-TUN. I was reallie upset by his decision. But when dere is love, dere is forgiveness.
I tink half a yr of running awae frm e reality is long enuf. I shld face e reality nw. It's hurtful but it's e fact. I reallie miss my man alot n decided tt I shld go back to him.
Tis event was held on a weekday, I took AM leave to attend tis event. Dere were quite a few stars dere but only 2 FC went, Dai's FC n Jeanette's FC. I'm glad we hv e most num of fans. Hees.
His pose is so simple but so attractive!!! *faint*
Is he pouting?! So cute! Hehe.
Love his smile!!!
HUAT AHH~ He is so cute when he said that.
When he boarded e bus, i went to e side n knocked on e window to get his attention. Once he looked over, I did e hrt shape sign agn. He smiled sweetly when he sees tt! Hehe. U noe, when dere is a glass inbetween e people, dey will normally put deir hands tgt rite? Ours is different. lols. He showed me his fist, act like he wanna punch me lidat. So I showed him my fist too. Haha. Instead of hands, we used fists. Lols.
Here is vid:
Cos of him, I'm on mag again. Jus pray tt Zzen doesn't see it. (Click on the pic to have a bigger view)
He is finally back from Shanghai! It's suppose to be a happy occasion but iWeekly spoiled my mood.
My heart culdn't tae it. It hurts badly.
However, e moment I saw him, I culdn't hide my excitement cos I missed him just too much. I did a hrt shape sign using my hands. He saw it n he smiled shyly, nt forgetting to give a light nod to acknowledge it. Hees. It's e first time I showed my love to him so openly, I jus culdn't hide animore.
I was feeling great but the fans took out the iWeekly n get him to sign. Owwww. The pain came back. I culdn't stand e pain, so I walked away n stand at a corner. I tried calling Sharon n wanted to pass e phone to Dai for him to wish Sharon gd luck in her exam e nxt day. She didn't pick up my call.
Suddenly, Dai was standing in front of me. He stroked my hair n said "我先走了。" I was stunned by his action. He NEVER did tis to ani fan before (nt tt i noe of)! I was too shocked tt I culdn't response to him.
Sharon returned my call, I picked up but I was still in shock, I culdn't reallie ans her. All I culd said was "I call u back ltr."
Dai boarded e cab, he even turned n waved gd bye to us. So swt of him.
I culdn't slp tt nite, I was pondering y he did tt to me. It's kinda impossible for an idol to do tis to a fan. So wad am I to him? I guess he treated me like a little sis. N e tot of it jus made me so upset. I dun wan to b his sis but his girl!
I consoled myself tt even if he onli treats me like a sis, as compared to e others, I'm special to him. At least tis tinking wun hurt me tt much.
If you are in love with a woman in this zodiac be prepared to be very happy or be very sorry. She is a very busy person with her own matters similar to a guy in this zodiac. She is able to live by herself without any guy in her life, a very strong person indeed.
Not because she does not have a dream guy, but if she can not find such person, so what. Because she thinks she could do anything that a man can do. She is a leader , a real confident type.
She likes to do things by herself, such as serving herself, opening the door herself. Because she thinks waiting for a helping hand is a waste of time, and she is not patient enough to wait around for that. If she starts to ask you out, do not think she starts to flirt with you, but because she thinks it is a waste of time to wait for you to be the one who asked.
She likes a COOL guy who sometime act like he is ignoring her, so he has a chance to show him his own confident. She like to guess her man's reaction, but at the same time she likes to has many men wanting her. She is a daring type who could just do thing differently from other people in her same society. She dare to fight for what she thinks belonged to her.
Even she acts confident she mostly feel lonely and alone. If she breaks up with someone , she won't show any emotion even deep down inside pain and agony. Not for long she will come back to be the cheery and merry person again, because she looks at the world positively and has "Faith" in the word "Love".
She has more men friends than women friends, so do not be a jealous type if you date her. She could be slightly jealous, but she hates jealous guy. She loves "Freedom" so before and after marriage , her freedom has to be the same. She likes you to trust her, even if she does not trust you anyhow.
She likes to be the one who is "Right", so if you argue with her , let her win if it is not a big deal for you in that subject. She is a straight forward type, so if she does not love you anymore, she will just tell you straight to your face. Her love and relationship are always real, so if she say "It's over" be prepare to leave, she is not testing you.
She is not a vulnerable type, so do not have to worry about her, she will survive by herself. If she is with you when you get sick, she will certainly take care and look after you, even look after you mean "small loan". Do not have secret with her, she hates it and really can piss her badly. When she is sad , be understanding. When she is happy, be happy with her, she likes that.
You will not get bore with this type of girl. Someone who is close to her will know that deep down beneath that confident and cold hearted person, she is just as fragile as any woman. She is a fun and talkative person and she likes to tease you. Do not let her talk alone, if you do she will leave.
She has many type of jobs because she beliefs what a man can do, I can do. If you want her to work for you, forget it. When she is in love, she will just leave her job in the day time just to come to see you, but not for long she will go back to work seriously again. Prepare to live and love with a "Working Woman" then you will be OK.
If she is mad, find a shelter for the "Hurricane" is here! Her bad temper will last very shortly though. She is not a revenge type and will not think of "pay Back" time. Most people might think of her as "One of a guy", but in fact she is a 100% woman. She is easily hurt, so be nice with her. If she really loves you, then you are lucky because she is an honest, truthful and will never bored you. Understand that sometimes she will be over confident and sometimes like to have power or act bossy.
I was so nervous today. I was actually trembling with fear when I was on my way to airport. I dunno how should I face him. I dunno whether he has read my msg. I dunno whether will he ignore me. I have so many questions in my mind while we were waiting for him to arrive.
He came. He walked towards the fans and all of them gather near him. I dun dare to go over. I just remain as when I am and look at him from far. He walked towards the check-in counter and saw me alone. He looked very concerned and asked “你为什么一个人站在这里？”I dunno how to ans him, so I just shook my head and he went ahead to check-in with Anollec and Elaine following him. I just stood there looking at him. The rest of the fans was at another side.
After he has check-in, he walked towards us. He looked at me and signal me to join the rest, so I walked over. The moment I was beside him, he asked “生气啊？”I dunno how to ans him, I just keep shaking my head. He wanted to explain, but I stopped him. Then he asked “要不要听我解释？”Of cos I want! I have been waiting for him to explain! So told him “要。可是可以不要在那么多人面前说吗？”He replied “好。” and told the fans to wait for him. He dragged me aside and explained to me. He said I have misunderstand his meaning because of the different tone of msg being passed. He gently rubbed my arms and said “不要哭了”.
I feel so touched. If he doesn't kare about me, he wun even bother to explain to me. But he didn't ignore me, instead he approached me and explained to me. Really wanna thanks Anollec for telling him about this. Sis, I really appreciate your help! Without you, I might still be crying over it. Thanks so much!
After explaining, we joined the rest and chatted. He asked me what's my age, so I asked him to guess. He guessed 18 and of cos i thank him for that! Then he asked whether I'm just younger than him by a few years. I nodded but didn't tell him my actual age. 女人的年龄是秘密嘛。呵呵。
Cute mahs? Haha. I'm wearing Dai's specs! Hees. So lucky of me, right? Lol. I wiped the specs with tissue before I return to him. Who noes he saw when I was wiping it and he said “不用抹啦，我不会介意的，我又不是gay.” So cute of him la. How I wish I was brave enough to tell him “我知道你不是gay啊，因为我要嫁给你！”Hahaha.
He is in super gd mood that day. I love to see him smile.
So cute, so cute, so cute!!!
Serious face.. Talking about investment matter..
He has that arrogant look here, I love it.
HuiSi took photos with him on different side, so I said i want too. Know what he said? “不认输的小孩。”我是不认输啊，但我不是小孩了啦。都已经能嫁给你了呢，哼。=P
This is my fav pic of all. Loves.
After taking photos, we walked towards the gate. While walking, he asked “你是不是很容易哭？”And I replied “是因为你我才会哭耶。”Then he just smiles.
I asked when will he be back, he said mid july. He dun wan to let us noe because he dun wan us to cum and fetch him. I told him I want to go and fetch him because I will miss him. He replied “想我就再部落格多留言。”He is giving me permission to flood his blog's comments. Haha.
I also asked him whether he read my previous letter for him, he said he read it and asked me what i want to ask. Haha. He sure knows I have lotsa qns. Lol. I said “我是要问你，照片好看吗？”He replied “我的蛮帅的，你的ok啦。”and everyone laughed. So thick skin lor. But... He is really handsome! Hees.
Before he left, he said “不要再哭了leh，我心里已经很难过，你哭我的心会痛的leh。”So sweet of him! I melted on the spot! How can I not love him? I gonna miss him like mad!
Video taken by Anollec:
Went party world with 2 dearies, Angela and Sharon.
A song from Angela and me to Zhen Huan and Dai (very awful voice of mine):
This is the first time I went singing but I can't sing any sad songs! I was smiling all the way while singing. A very very happy day!
Since 23 Apr 2007, I've fall in love wif tis man, Akanishi Jin, Jap singer. He debuted in 22 Mar 2006 with another 5 members as a group, KAT-TUN. I reallie tink it's fated tt I wuld fall in love wif him. I've nv been interested in Jap industry. My sis used to admire a few Jap idols, but tt time I laughed at her n said "Dun b silly to like Jap idols, dey r so far away, u can't even c dem, hear dem or touch dem in real life."
R u able to accept e man u love doing tis? Even if u noe tis is jus for work? I can't. I seriously can't. In 2008, Jin's buddy, Yamapi, did a shot for the mag, Anan. When I saw it, I was praying hard tt Jin wun b e nxt one on tis mag. But I guessed god didn't hear my prayer. When I saw e photo on e internet, I cried v v v hard. Tts e first time I cried in front of my family. Dey tot wad happened tt can make me cried so hard. When my sis noe e reason for me crying so hard, she gave me a disgusted look. She reallie tinks tt i'm insane. e reason I cried was bcos I dun wan to share my hubby's body wif e whole world female! At tt pt of time, my tot is "He is onli mine!". Yupp, it's crazy, but tts how much I love him.
His pose is so simple but so attractive!!! *faint*
Is he pouting?! So cute! Hehe.
Love his smile!!!
HUAT AHH~ He is so cute when he said that.
Cute mahs? Haha. I'm wearing Dai's specs! Hees. So lucky of me, right? Lol. I wiped the specs with tissue before I return to him. Who noes he saw when I was wiping it and he said “不用抹啦，我不会介意的，我又不是gay.” So cute of him la. How I wish I was brave enough to tell him “我知道你不是gay啊，因为我要嫁给你！”Hahaha.
He is in super gd mood that day. I love to see him smile.
So cute, so cute, so cute!!!
Serious face.. Talking about investment matter..
He has that arrogant look here, I love it.
HuiSi took photos with him on different side, so I said i want too. Know what he said? “不认输的小孩。”我是不认输啊，但我不是小孩了啦。都已经能嫁给你了呢，哼。=P
This is my fav pic of all. Loves.
Went party world with 2 dearies, Angela and Sharon.
